new life !

alhamdulillaaahhh .. akhirnya gw LULUS !

well Thank God for his greatest gift ever..

and it's dedicated for my mom and my dad..

hmm..

abis lulus, KATANYA, harusnya seneng2..

tp abis lulus gw dihadapkan dgn datang bulan dgn tingkat sensitivitas yg cukup tinggi sepertinya..

hmmm..

ga mau nulis apa yg lg gw rasain..

tp bner2 cuma ngerasa BENER2 CAPEK !

I'm so sick with all those things..

ya ya ya ya yaaa..

habis sudah ! done!

pgnnya malem mingguan seneng2..

tp udh ga moooooooooodddd seada2nya..

okay.. JUST GO AWAY ! I DONT EVEN NEED YOU!
CAUSE EVERY SINGLE WORD YOU SAY, YOU NEVER DO IT!

SUCH A CRAP !

LIAR!

NO MAN AT ALL !

WELL, I HATE.. IT CAUSED BY I USED TO LOVED YOU MUCH

TOO MUCH = NEVER GOOD !

AND THIS IS THE EFFECT !

WELL, GOODBYE !

I DONT CARE .................................

what? this is my new life?

YES !

NEW LIFE WITHOUT HIM ANYMORE !!! *BIG SMILE*

FORGIVENESS

gw pgn crita ini k sypa ya?
knpa gw segitu marahnya ternyata..
ympuunn..

lg bulan puasa, dinda!
coba dimaafkan ..

hmmm..
ga penting sih sbnrnya msalahnya.. hehe..
tp biarin aja lah ky gini dlu..
toh gw ga ngapa2in..

I'm sorry that I'm too disappointed to you..
even I know it's sooooo childish..
but I think you have no time with me anymore..

ya ya ya ya .. mgkn emg blom dpt aja timing nya..
well, I miss our silly-time together.. huuuhu..

whatever!
I'm trying hard to forgive you .. even you never say sorry or know that you have to say it..
mgkn nunggu lebaran aja..

I just ...

OH MY ..
why oh why..

tiba2 inget dia..
tiba2 kangen bgt sm dia..
tiba2 pgn meluk dia bgt..
tiba2 pgn bgt ngeliat dia walopun cm bntar aja..
tiba2 pgn liat senyum dia lg..

tahiiiiiiiiiiiikkk..
I HATE THIS FEELING !

kenapa dia ga segampang itu buat diapus dr otak gw??
kenapa dia masih juga seneng nari2 di otak gw??
kenapa dia masih juga ngaruh dlm hidup gw??
kenapa dia masih jg stay dsana??

nooooooooooooooooooo..
please bikin gw lupa sm dia..

kasih tau gw, apa yg bs bikin gw lupa sm lo..
kasih tau gw, apa yg bs bikin lo ilang dr otak gw..
kasih tau gw, apa hebatnya lo smpe gw segininya..
kasih tau gw, apa yg udh lo kasih buat gw dlu..
kasih tau gw, ini perasaan apaaaaaaa??

ini apa?
ini kenapa?
ini gmn?
ini smpe kpn?

me never likes this situation ! *seriously*

hmmmmmm..
bnyk alesan knp gw SEHARUSNYA bs lupa sm lo..
dan emg udh SEHARUSNYA ini ga pernah kejadian lg..

I dont know why it's happened suddenly ..
I don't know why I miss you..

I just ........
miss you!

that's all..

F R I E N D S

do you know something called friends?
F R I E N D S ..
yaaa kalo bahasa indonesianya "TEMAN"

yang kadang bs mengalami metamorfosa jd sesuatu bernama "SAHABAT" atau "MUSUH" ..
hmmm..

Ga tau gmn rasanya hidup tanpa ada teman ..
YES, we cannot live without them, right??

sometimes, we feel like everything's fine, but sometimes it's not..
kadang lo ngerasa bakal bs sama2 terus sm mereka, dia, dan orang itu tanpa ngelakuin apapun, tp ternyata you lost them, him/her, that person..

kadang ga pernah tau caranya : how to keep them with you as long as you want !

friends need : CARE .. TOUCH .. SMILE .. TEARS .. HUGS .. LAUGH .. STUPIDITY .. SERIOUSNESS .. and CHEMISTRY ?
I think so ..

if someday, "FRIENDS" dont get what they need, so we wont have them anymore?

but what if something called LOYALITY, RESPECT, and ACCEPTABILITY to be the exception?
dimana "FRIENDS" mgkn hrs ttp setia, ngehargain apa yg ada, dan bs ngertiin kekurangan yg ada..

hmmm..
needs + the exception = bff ??
or
needs (without exception) = bff ??

I dont have any idea with these things..
cause now on, it feels like they're demanding for THAT "needs" without give any chance to THAT "exception"..

apa cm perasaan aja?
apa emg pantes dptin ini?

still have no idea..
THAT'S WHY : friends do COME and GO !

*even it is so hurt when you lost one of ur friends ..

autism ..

lg berasa autis..
jauh dr peradaban dunia..
without any touches of anybody !

i'm the enemy ..
i'm the outsider ..
i'm just a dummy ..
ooh..
AUTISM !

jd pgn menjauh dr mana2..
pgn pergi yg jauuuhhh..
lg ga pgn dgr apapun dr sypapun..

mgkn ini yg pernah dirasain bbrp temen gw kmrn2..
ya ya ya yaaa..

lg males bgttt..
dunia mengabur !
skripsi gw ternyata cm ngelindur..

ah shit !
I hate the world lately..

maybe I need to go to another world!
yes I have too ..

I want to be
no-enemy ..
no-outsider ..
no-dummy ..
no-autism ..

hey ..
AUTISM ??
that's my life lately ..

have fun kalian !