new life !

alhamdulillaaahhh .. akhirnya gw LULUS !

well Thank God for his greatest gift ever..

and it's dedicated for my mom and my dad..

hmm..

abis lulus, KATANYA, harusnya seneng2..

tp abis lulus gw dihadapkan dgn datang bulan dgn tingkat sensitivitas yg cukup tinggi sepertinya..

hmmm..

ga mau nulis apa yg lg gw rasain..

tp bner2 cuma ngerasa BENER2 CAPEK !

I'm so sick with all those things..

ya ya ya ya yaaa..

habis sudah ! done!

pgnnya malem mingguan seneng2..

tp udh ga moooooooooodddd seada2nya..

okay.. JUST GO AWAY ! I DONT EVEN NEED YOU!
CAUSE EVERY SINGLE WORD YOU SAY, YOU NEVER DO IT!

SUCH A CRAP !

LIAR!

NO MAN AT ALL !

WELL, I HATE.. IT CAUSED BY I USED TO LOVED YOU MUCH

TOO MUCH = NEVER GOOD !

AND THIS IS THE EFFECT !

WELL, GOODBYE !

I DONT CARE .................................

what? this is my new life?

YES !

NEW LIFE WITHOUT HIM ANYMORE !!! *BIG SMILE*

FORGIVENESS

gw pgn crita ini k sypa ya?
knpa gw segitu marahnya ternyata..
ympuunn..

lg bulan puasa, dinda!
coba dimaafkan ..

hmmm..
ga penting sih sbnrnya msalahnya.. hehe..
tp biarin aja lah ky gini dlu..
toh gw ga ngapa2in..

I'm sorry that I'm too disappointed to you..
even I know it's sooooo childish..
but I think you have no time with me anymore..

ya ya ya ya .. mgkn emg blom dpt aja timing nya..
well, I miss our silly-time together.. huuuhu..

whatever!
I'm trying hard to forgive you .. even you never say sorry or know that you have to say it..
mgkn nunggu lebaran aja..

I just ...

OH MY ..
why oh why..

tiba2 inget dia..
tiba2 kangen bgt sm dia..
tiba2 pgn meluk dia bgt..
tiba2 pgn bgt ngeliat dia walopun cm bntar aja..
tiba2 pgn liat senyum dia lg..

tahiiiiiiiiiiiikkk..
I HATE THIS FEELING !

kenapa dia ga segampang itu buat diapus dr otak gw??
kenapa dia masih juga seneng nari2 di otak gw??
kenapa dia masih juga ngaruh dlm hidup gw??
kenapa dia masih jg stay dsana??

nooooooooooooooooooo..
please bikin gw lupa sm dia..

kasih tau gw, apa yg bs bikin gw lupa sm lo..
kasih tau gw, apa yg bs bikin lo ilang dr otak gw..
kasih tau gw, apa hebatnya lo smpe gw segininya..
kasih tau gw, apa yg udh lo kasih buat gw dlu..
kasih tau gw, ini perasaan apaaaaaaa??

ini apa?
ini kenapa?
ini gmn?
ini smpe kpn?

me never likes this situation ! *seriously*

hmmmmmm..
bnyk alesan knp gw SEHARUSNYA bs lupa sm lo..
dan emg udh SEHARUSNYA ini ga pernah kejadian lg..

I dont know why it's happened suddenly ..
I don't know why I miss you..

I just ........
miss you!

that's all..

F R I E N D S

do you know something called friends?
F R I E N D S ..
yaaa kalo bahasa indonesianya "TEMAN"

yang kadang bs mengalami metamorfosa jd sesuatu bernama "SAHABAT" atau "MUSUH" ..
hmmm..

Ga tau gmn rasanya hidup tanpa ada teman ..
YES, we cannot live without them, right??

sometimes, we feel like everything's fine, but sometimes it's not..
kadang lo ngerasa bakal bs sama2 terus sm mereka, dia, dan orang itu tanpa ngelakuin apapun, tp ternyata you lost them, him/her, that person..

kadang ga pernah tau caranya : how to keep them with you as long as you want !

friends need : CARE .. TOUCH .. SMILE .. TEARS .. HUGS .. LAUGH .. STUPIDITY .. SERIOUSNESS .. and CHEMISTRY ?
I think so ..

if someday, "FRIENDS" dont get what they need, so we wont have them anymore?

but what if something called LOYALITY, RESPECT, and ACCEPTABILITY to be the exception?
dimana "FRIENDS" mgkn hrs ttp setia, ngehargain apa yg ada, dan bs ngertiin kekurangan yg ada..

hmmm..
needs + the exception = bff ??
or
needs (without exception) = bff ??

I dont have any idea with these things..
cause now on, it feels like they're demanding for THAT "needs" without give any chance to THAT "exception"..

apa cm perasaan aja?
apa emg pantes dptin ini?

still have no idea..
THAT'S WHY : friends do COME and GO !

*even it is so hurt when you lost one of ur friends ..

autism ..

lg berasa autis..
jauh dr peradaban dunia..
without any touches of anybody !

i'm the enemy ..
i'm the outsider ..
i'm just a dummy ..
ooh..
AUTISM !

jd pgn menjauh dr mana2..
pgn pergi yg jauuuhhh..
lg ga pgn dgr apapun dr sypapun..

mgkn ini yg pernah dirasain bbrp temen gw kmrn2..
ya ya ya yaaa..

lg males bgttt..
dunia mengabur !
skripsi gw ternyata cm ngelindur..

ah shit !
I hate the world lately..

maybe I need to go to another world!
yes I have too ..

I want to be
no-enemy ..
no-outsider ..
no-dummy ..
no-autism ..

hey ..
AUTISM ??
that's my life lately ..

have fun kalian !

He's still with me .. till October ??

hmmm..
I know I just love him..
I was just too weak to let him go..
even I told him that I didnt wanna be with him anymore..
*sorry*

but I've told you that we have no future..
we still able to have a "normal" relationship ..

But he refused it..
I just couldnt stand to leave him..

I'm sorry..
For me, it's not an easy thing..
but we HAVE to do this..

it's just for our own good!
maybe, it looks like unfair deal..
but, believe me..
It's the best way..

hmmm..
just till October??
just we'll see..

Bot, whenever you're ready to leave me..
just leave me..

I deserve it.. we deserve it..

and 1 thing !
I just love you..
and I have no reason for it..

thanks for being a part of my life..

hmmmm..
promise me, if you have a new relationship : YOU HAVE TO FIND A GIRL WHO HAS A SAME RELIGION WITH YOU .. ;)

take care urself, Bot !
*lovelove

why so seriuos ?

hmmm..
it's just a dilemma ..
mom or him !
I know, mom is the priority ..
I know .. I know..
hmmm..

but I think it's time to move on and make a decision to leave him..
I think, he will hold me tight and do something to make everything like we wanted before..
but he won't..

he said that we never get into something called serious !
oh nooooooooo..
I hate to hear that !
it hurts me so much ..

I know that me and him will not end up with something called marriage ..
but I think miracle will on our way ..
but now, I dont think so..

hmmm..
maybe what he said made me open my eyes then know that we are not meant to be..
even honestly, it's so hard for me to let him go..

but I believe..
everything's gonna be okay, if we're not together again ..

no more lies for my mom ..
THAT'S THE IMPORTANT THING !

hmmmmmmmmmm..
I just wanna runaway ..
as far as I can be ..

but, does he know how much I love him?
maybe yes or maybe not..
I just dont wanna think about it..
so why so serious, dinda ?? ;(

I'm BACK!

haaaaaaaaaaaayyy ..
waa udh lama ga isi blog..
ahiahiaa..
life's getting busy *lebay* hehe..

hmmm..
skripsi akhirnya ganti judul..
internet gw kmrn smpet blom dibayar, jd temporary die!
preparing for his bday..

hohooo..
tomorrow is the day!
HIS BDAY!!!
doakan bejalan lancar yaaaa.. huhuuu..
*smooches

Bot!

hehe.. Bot! that's a new nick name for aditya putranto! hahaha..
hmmmm..
slamat pagiii menjelang siang..
huhuu.. what a flat day..
ya ya ya yaaa.. skripsi jg tak berjalan apa2..
duh knpa blom dpt blsan jg dr pasific paint yaaaaaaaa??
huhuhuu..

eia, I had a strange dream last nite.. just cant stop wondering why why why I got that kinda dream.. hahaha.. did I miss that person?? hahahaha.. maybe a bit! :p
no no no no no no no no no no just kidding! hehehe..

waahhh 2 days to go for accidentally duo.. huhuu.. blom dpt rundown acaranya nih.. ga tau main jam brp.. jd kan gw bs tau hrs siap2 dr jam brp.. hmmmmm..
jd kpikiran hal yg bikin gw ga bs tidur td malm.. *thanks for fitri, who gave me an advice!*

yaaaa gmn nanti lah.. tiba2 malah deg2an sndiri.. hahahaha..
oia, everything's going good.. yaaaa walopun gw tau dr kmrn jg slalu bgini..
just let it flow lah..

eh eh eh SKRIPSI?? yampuuuuuuuuuuuunnn.. ggggrrrrrrr!!!!

wishing a very happy birthday for devanty safitri!

Happy bday fitriii..
22 years old already! :)
I hope being 20 something is not that hard!

hmm.. jd pgn baca lg "being 20 something is hard" ..
haaaaa.. Quarter life crisis!
hmm.. mgkn umur2 segini yg udah mulai mikirin jati diri..
mikirin pasangan hidup..
deadline goal yg udh dirancang dr umur belasan..
pengen dpt pengakuan dr sekitar..

hoaaaaa.. tapi apa smua cewek (atau mgkn cowok jg?) bs lewatin smuanya dgn baik?
sometimes I feel so jealous with those ladies who already got her soulmate, her settle job, her own amazing life!

yaaa smua org pasti punya waktunya sendiri2 buat dptin smuanya itu.. hmmm..
ngeliat itiink yg baru aja officially engaged, andin yg udh seneng bgt sm kerjaannya.. huhuu..
how lucky they are!

but I believe, and we have to believe that we will have our own GREAT things..
Tuhan pasti adil dan sangat bijaksana dlm nentuin waktunya kita dptin smua itu..

ya ya ya smua dari faktor pendewasaan hidup!
OH MY GOD, suddenly I love my life! I love the process that God gave me to be the wiser one.. cause I'm in that process..

Maybe sometimes we have to face the hard times, but I believe God have a plan for us..
And we will thankful for it!

*So happy to write things above.. It makes me had a very WIDE smile for today!
so just write what you wanna write! CAUSE IT FEELS SO GOOD!

sniff sniff sniff sniff .. huh!

aaaaaaaa bersin2 teruuuss..
huhuuu harusnya sih udh biasaaa.. scara hampir tiap hr bgini deh.. :(

tp jd menjalar k asmaa.. wadduuhhh jd inget night at the museum 2.. ahahaha.. kocak!
eia, udh hari slsa ajaaa..
waduuuhh.. waktu terus berjalan.. skripsi oh skripsi!

td alhamdulillah udh dpt e-mail blsan dr pasific paint! Ya Allah, smoga bs di accept sm perusahaan trahir iniii.. Amiiiiiiiiiiinnn..

oia, tar malm diajakin makan d dadu sm anak2 ciledug.. pgn ikuuuttt..
tp no money, no one @ home.. arrrrgghhh!!
serba salah jdnya.. huihuihuihuiii..

eia, blom blom jg ktemu mala.. ympuuunn.. miss her so muchooo ginii pdhal..
maaf yaa darla, blom smpet2 ktemuuuu..
smoga sabtu iniii bs ktemu ya ya ya yaaa.. amin! hihii..

sabtu ini! another gig of accidentally duo! yippiii.. smangaaatt!! :))
smoga dibayar! ahahaha.. ayooo dooonngg bapak Undang, kami lagi butuh sdikit tmbahan uang! ahehehehe..

yampuunn blog gw udh ngalor ngidul ga jelas kmn2.. hihii..
siang2, baru bngun, sepi.. jdnya nulis acak2ann.. ahahahaaa..

*cupp

I Love Today! :)

huhuuuu..
finally I write something NICE in my blog! hihii..
hari iniii.. I just couldnt STOP laughing..
It was all because my silly girls..

hahahaha..
tapi agak dipikir2 hr ini.. CUKUP HEDON!
sushi tei - threelicious taste - food court - regal ..
huhuu..
yaaa walopun gw cm ikutan order d sushi tei dan regal.. hahaha..

but I really love today!
huaaaaa.. kapan lagii yaaa bs ky gini..
td aja, udh agak kekurangan waktu aciet yg udh mulai kerja *good for her!*
tp akhirnya dia nyusul jg sih..
gmn klo smuanya udh mulai kerja yaaa.. huhuhuu..

gonna miss lots of times together!

anyway, thanks for today, ladies!
have have have to meet up again as soon as possible! hehe..
nginep2an aaaaahh..

oia, mau nginep drumah ebay kaaaann!! asik asik..
awal Juli kali yaaa plg bener.. huhuu..

Love you all.. *smooches ..


















*fotonyaa blom ada aciet!

wedding day ..

good evening!! :)
wedding day .. no no no no I'm not talking about my wedding day!
hihiii.. ;p

hmmm.. gw baru pulg dr kawinan nmenin nyokp gw.. d balai sudirman..
yg kawin org arab! walahee bru pertama kali ngerasa jd minoritas! meuni arab smuaaa isinya! hahaha..

but I'm thinking about something!
my wedding!
hahaha.. gw mau ah nikah d balai sudirman di balai prajuritnya..
soalnya udh hampir tiap ada kawinan dsana pasti gw dtg..
klo kawinan tmp lain, gw jrg malah hampir ga pernah dtg.. ehhee..

trus, td pengantinnya pake gaun gtu.. what a nice gown! love it..
nice make up.. dan pastinya nice FOOD! hihii..
walpoun gw ga mkan bnyk jg sih..

oia, pernah waktu kawinan sodara jauh gw d balai prajurit, balai sudirman jg..
dikejar2 anak2 kecil buat dikasih bunga.. ga dikejar2 jg sih *agak mendramatisasi* haha..
pokonya gw dksh bunga sm bbrp anak kecil yg gw ga tau itu anak2 dr mana..
cewek2 gtu.. lucu2 bgtt..
ktnyaaa: "ini bunga buat kakak nikah!".. hahahahahaha..
nikah sm sypa ya, dek?? ;p

yaaaa mgkn gw beneran di doain yaa sm anak2 itu.. thanks btw, lil'girls :)
nah mgkn krn itu jg gw pgn nikah dsana.. huhuu amin!

yaaa sm sypapun gw nikah ntar, smoga itu yg trahir buat jd yg pertama.. *pilihanku-maliq*
amiiinn.. :) :) :) :) *wink*

have a GOOD saturday ..

haloooo..
I'm back.. maybe in a good mood..
not so good.. so so, actually..
but I have something to share with..

Saturday.. the day after Friday, and before Sunday..
hahahaha.. yes it is..

I have a boyfriend, but unfortunately..
We have a rarely saturday night together :(
hahaha..

but actually that's not a big deal..
maybe it caused by "backstreet".. poor me:(
hihii..

btw, tonight I'll accompany my mom to the wedding..
actually I dont know who's on the wedding! :P
but it's okay!

hiaaaaaaaa..
ngemeng apa sih lhoooo???
hahahaha.. saking gada kerjaan bgtt drumah..
yapyapyap
udah hr sabtu lg..
I had a GOOD saturday last week..
maybe I'll never have like last week..
huhuu..

but maybe I'll have more than last week, someday! hahayy..
udh ah.. pgn mandi, siap2, dandan2..
hmmmm..

have a GOOD saturday night, everyone :)

facebook oh facebook

bner2 deh hari jumat ini.. lengkap penderitaan gw!
gw pikir smuanya udh bakal baik2 aja..
skrg ditmbah facebook gw eror.. ga bs dibuka!
pas gw coba buka pake fb org lain, bs kbuka!

ada apa oh ada apa?

gw udh clear cookies sm cache nya..
tp msh ga bisa jugaaaaaaaa!!
huhuhuuu knp siihh???

tp bner2 deh fb bikin addict! sihal..
dukun yg bikin facebook itu hebat bgt..
bs bikin org ketergantungan smpe segitunya..
ahahahaa..

mgkn itu jg knp fatwa MUI itu bikin fb haram..
hahahaha.. iri aja tuh mreka!
tp apapun jg sbnrnya bs jd haram klo tujuannya ga bener..
oh please, dont be that shallow lah, sir! ;p

hehehe.. btw, kembali k facebook gw..
ini nih td gara2 gw nyari living social..
pas gw buka, tampilannya brubah.. gw jd bingung sndiri..
jdnya berinisiatif buat nyari k older post gw smpe bego..
eeeeeeehh trus eror! :(
living social nya jg ga dpt.. sihal!

hmmm ga penting sih pdhal gw pgn buka living social gw..
gw pgn liat waktu itu gw isi apa aja pas '5 things that I want for my birthday' ..
hmmm.. yg gw inget sih cm 1 = someone singing and playing piano for me..

ahiahiahiahiaaaa.. kbayang 1 org yg main! tahiiikklaaaaaaaaaahh dindaaaaaa..
be real lah!!!! ngarep ajaaahhh.. hahahahahhaa :p

udh ah.. jd ngalor ngidul kmn2..
duh facebook gw, knpa engkau??
please be okay! huhuuu..

facebook oh facebook ;)

I WANT MY SILLY FRIDAY BACK! I HATE THIS FRIDAY :(

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!
rasanya pgn lari2 kemanaaaaaaaa gtu trus teriak2 smpe puas..
ato paling ga, pgn main bulutangkis aja deh.. I'll feel better, for sure!!

hmm..
mulai dr k perpus ga dpt apa2..
ga jd bimbingan sm pak taufiq..
ga jd sushian sm adi..
djwirya nelfon tiba2 nyuruh dtg k kantornya..
pulg naik angkot keujanan..
nelf botol ga bs2..
ga ktemu dia lg.. pdhal ga tau kpn bs ktemu dia lg :(

i want my silly friday back with my ladies!
i hate this friday!!!!!
pgn nangis seada2nyaaaaaaaaaa.. :((

so why should give up??

I'm craving some sushies .. hehehe..
hmmm..
mau ngapain ya?
blom bs tidur..
janji nelf si cina..
janji conference jg sm ladies..
hmmm..
bingung!
nelf gina jg masih pending! *maaf gina.. i'll call you later!

jd kpikiran yg td dibahas sm adi..
hmm..
sblm hari h ..
krn gw tau rasanya sesudah hari h ..
huaaaaaaaaaaaaa..
dilemma..

happiness + sadness + dilemma = life!
hahaha..

yaaa i'll call him..
i'll call them..
i'll call gina..
hihii..

my hands and feets are sweaty!
knp gini ya?
stress stress hoooo..
OMG!!!!!

HELP MEEE!!!!!
minum obat penenang kali ya.. hahayy..

smuaya bertubi2..

-skripsi
-si cina
-keuangan

oh my..
what a life!

tapi ini salah satu dr proses pendewasaan diri..
yap!
pendewasaan!

kalo bahasanya nurul, masalah datang 1 paket sm jln kluarnya..
yes yes yes I love that statement..
huhuuu..

so, why should give up??
semangat dindaaaaaaaa.. :)

thanks anyway ..

He called me, FINALLY!
even I'm not feeling better .. haha..

but thanks anyway, for calling me, sir!

What am I supposed to do??

HELP OH HELP ..
what I have to do now?

stand still??
talk??
stand still??
talk??

aaaaaaaaaarrrggghhh .. God, please help me!
I know where is the right way, I knew it from the beginning..

even I knew I was going to the wrong way, so what should I do NOW??

capek capek capek capek capek capek capek capek capek :((

I miss him actually ..
but I think, THAT'S IT!!!!

I just need someone to be my shoulder to cry on ..
I just need some hugs..
I just need a bowl of ice cream..
I just need a box of chocolates..

yes yes yes yes I need those kinda things!!!

somebody HELP me, pleassssseeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

I dont care.. I WONT!!!! *got it??

hah!
buat kesekian kalinya kaya gini..
td gw crita sm nyokp klo semalem gw mimpi nyetir mobil nanjak ga abis2..
and you know what my mom's said??

"itu artinya mau capek hati!"

hmmm.. CAPEK HATI????
nyokp gw bilang sih, it's all about my thesis!
tp kynya gw lebih tau ini ttg apa..

yes yes yes yes I'm getting exhousted with HIM..
udh bner2 kesekian kalinya..
yaaaa gw ga nyalahin dia kok..

ini jg krn gw yg ga bs lsg ngomong sm apa yg gw rasain..
hmmm.. tp knp sih, hrs slalu gw duluan yg nyariin dia????
knp ga sekali aja dia yg nelf/hubungin gw duluan..

HAAAAAAAAAAAAA..
jd mikir2 what will I do for his bday later..
apa udh bakal kburu putus?
jd serba salah..
bingung!

tp apapun itu, kynya gw bakal menghilang sajaaaa..
scara jg gw ga k kmpus lg.. bakal jrg lg k kmps..
jd, bakal susah jg ktemu dianya..
huhuuu :(

does he ever miss me??
should I care??

why should I?
maybe actually, I have to..
but I'm just a human being who needs some take and give!

am I wrong with that statement??
dont know for sure..

and maybe I DONT CARE, and maybe I WONT CARE!!!!
*sorry ..